Mary Debono and the Feldenkrais Method®

On July 1, 2018

“To me, the word ‘healer’ implies that someone outside of ourselves has the power to heal us. I don’t feel that way. I feel that I have some knowledge to impart and certain ways of using my hands that with small, gentle movements encourage the muscles to move in new ways. I provide the environment for the change, but it’s the nervous system itself that makes the changes” – Mary Debono, Guild Certified Feldenkrais® Practitioner

Mary Debono, Certified Feldenkrais PractitionerSuch a powerful statement. When I first heard Mary’s story about how the Feldenkrais Method – a method of healing that worked to take away 20-year old pain from her body – I was fascinated and eager to understand more about how this method could work on animals.

Designed to be almost as relaxing as a massage, the Feldenkrais Method involves using the heart and hands for healing. According to an article in The New York Times by Jane E. Brody, this method is on the rise in popularity for healing both people and animals.

“After two hour-long sessions focused first on body awareness and then on movement retraining at the Feldenkrais Institute of New York, I understood what it meant to experience an incredible lightness of being,” Brody wrote. “Having, temporarily at least, released the muscle tension that aggravates my back and hip pain, I felt like I was walking on air.”

She continued, “I had long refrained from writing about this method of countering pain because I thought it was some sort of New Age gobbledygook with no scientific basis. Boy, was I wrong!”

A common misconception of how this massage-like method can improve a person or animal’s overall health, Mary Debono, a healer in my book who shares her personal story of how the Feldenkrais Method worked for her, clarifies in one of her blog posts:

“Many people who see me work with horses assume I’m doing a gentle form of equine massage. And I can’t blame them. They see me touching a horse, who is usually quite relaxed and happy. When I explain to the onlookers that I’m not an equine massage therapist, but a practitioner of the Feldenkrais Method, I am often met with a blank stare.  Then they ask,  ‘What’s the difference between massage and the Feldenkrais Method?’”

Though visually similar, the Feldenkrais Method reaches much deeper than the release and relaxation of a massage – it engages the nervous system; and that’s where the healing takes place. Clients sit or lay down on a low, padded table and Mary uses pleasurable movement and gentle touch to improve their flexibility, coordination, posture, and to eliminate back, knee, and neck pain.

She works with people, cats, dogs, and horses – and has been practicing the Feldenkrais Method for more than 20 years.

The premise of my book The Pet Healer Project is the miraculous work that healers do with animals and with people. The seeming simplicity of a touch is so much more than that. It is about moving energy; connecting heart to heart; facilitating deep, healing connections; and promoting life-long health and vitality.

The Feldenkrais Method is a prime example. Created by Israeli physicist and mechanical engineer Moshe Feldenkrais, the method is meant to connect mind and body. It relinquishes habitual movement patterns that cause or contribute to continuous pain. It is intended to teach the body easier, more efficient ways to move.

I hope you’ll read the remarkable stories Mary Debono shares with me in my book. She uses the Feldenkrais Method do some pretty extraordinary work.

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Learn more about Mary at her website: Debono Moves

Featured Healer, Carol Komitor

On June 9, 2018

“Healing” is an all-encompassing word that stretches far beyond the physical realm.  There’s spiritual, vibrational, visual, touch, emotional – the list is endless. And the beauty of healing is that all modalities are connected in a special way – they all address the three aspects of existence: body, spirit, and consciousness.

“We humans have layered systems that encompass our physical, emotional, and mental bodies,” explains Carol Komitor, one of the brilliant healers in my book, The Pet Healer Project. “In animals, that system is integrated, not layered, like little pixels in a digital picture that encompass the animal’s electromagnetic field.”

Carol Komitor demonstrating healing techniques on a friendly horse.Carol is the founder and director of Healing Touch for Animals, an energy-based modality of Healing Touch that is used to provide whole body wellness. It is intended to enhance traditional health care – not replace it.

According to her website, Healing Touch for Animals “assists animals with their health and well-being, behavioral issues, physical, mental, and emotional healing, and the enhancement of the animal/human bond through energetic connections and the application of energy medicine techniques.”

I was drawn to Carol and her work immediately, especially after hearing her beautiful story of working with an eight-year old Golden Retriever named Tellie, who was diagnosed with an aggressive, “terminal” cancer. Her owner, Mikki, was devastated and desperate, and sought out an alternative to chemo.

I won’t give away the ending (you have to read her story to find out!), but I assure you, it is nothing short of miraculous. In addition to hands-on energy therapy, Carol told me about methods she used on Tellie – and on other animals – that I found fascinating. And I’d like to share three of them with you today.

First, energy work. Sounds self-explanatory – working with the body’s energy – but the process in which it works (and how Carol explains it), is complex yet simple to understand.  Energy treatment initiates relaxation to the animal’s body; relaxation releases endorphins; endorphins relax the muscles; relaxed muscles increase circulation; oxygen levels are elevated; body absorbs more nutrients; enzymes build for proper digestion; this regulates the hormones; toxins are released; healthy cells grow; and healing occurs.

Next, essential oils. The emotional and physical benefits of these oils are just as powerful with animals as they are with humans. Since they are distilled from plants, essential oils can enhance a persons’ or animal’s immune system naturally. Carol used essential oils Copaiba (to reduce pain and loosen muscles) and Frankincense (to boost immunity, relieve chronic stress, and reduce pain and inflammation) on Tellie.

Third, a technique called Bridging. As Carol explains it in Pet Healer Project, “A bridging technique is often used for animals that are scattered or fragmented due to illness, injury, or personality disorder. This technique balances and clears the energy field and brings wholeness into place.”

Specifically, “once you are centered, place one hand on the chest at the animal’s heart chakra, the other in front of the withers on the throat chakra. As the energy runs through you into the animal, you send your message with words or thoughts to them, pausing with your words between each step as you facilitate the energy flow.”

The Healing Touch modality has been used by more than 75,000 healthcare practitioners worldwide – and Carol is spreading her work throughout the world with the courses she teaches.

“To be an emotional support for animals through their energetic field is a wonderful job,” Carol says. “I am proud to be among the voices that speak for their continued safety and existence on the planet.”

Have you had an experience with healing that you’d like to share? I’d love to hear from you!

With love,



How Much is that Doggie in the Picture?

On September 19, 2017

Puppies in a litter.

Online again staring at pictures of puppies. I bounce from one website to another—from shelters to breeders, to private sellers, beginning in my home state of California then beyond. Google offers up puppies of every color, size, breed and cross-breed, each with their own unique traits and temperaments. Years ago, I had a Maltese, Tashi Delek, a book present to myself following the publication of The Tibetan Book of Elders. Since then, I learned that many breeders have found that crossing Maltese with other breeds strengthened the line and eliminated certain health problems. I pore over pictures of various Maltese mixes: Shih tzu, Bichon Frise, Yorkie, Poodle…I stop at a stunner, a photo of Maltipoo puppies, six of them lined up like a shelf of stuffed animals in a toy store. My heart skips a beat. I read on. It’s explained that these puppies are first generation crosses from pedigreed bloodlines with flawless health histories. Each are sooo insanely adorable it’s not fair.

I scroll down to the reviews of people who had adopted these adorables over the past few years and contacted those who were willing to talk about their experience, explaining that I was really just window shopping. People raved and gushed and sent me recent pictures of their pups. I was sorry I asked. Adorables don’t come cheap, I learn; on top of that, there’s the shipping cost, plus the care and feeding and training and all the puppy paraphernalia. Out of my price range at the moment.

My stepdaughter Debbie, herself an animal lover, had been following my puppy dreams, looking at the pictures I kept sending and reading the descriptions. Little did I know that all along she had been conspiring with my three sons. Then right around Mother’s Day, the call came and the three of them were on the line. Suddenly it was Happy Mother’s Day, Happy Next Birthday, and Happy Everything Forever! In a few months, a new litter would be ready and one of those insanely adorable doggies in the picture would be mine!

The Silence of a Dog-less House

On August 23, 2017


It’s a different kind of quiet. The kind that makes you dread turning the key in the lock and opening the door. It’s like being without a shadow or an echo; it’s the silence of a single teardrop.

Friends tell me maybe it’s time to think about another puppy to which I say, there is no other puppy, God made only one. And I know that isn’t true, the world is full of puppies, but there was only one Charley.

Three-and-a-half months later and the grieving isn’t over, it’s not even lessening; it’s working its way to a full-scale depression. I’m not walking, except when I force myself and then I have to take a different route from my walks with Charley. Thankfully, the book is finished so I’m free to pour out my anguish onto the page without a thought to punctuation. Let the commas fall where they may.

On one of my boring walks, I pass one—a puppy, new to the leash, so it bucks and spins and tries to get loose. I stop and watch a while, and smile. The puppy’s owner, a young woman, shakes her head and smiles back. “I guess she’ll get the hang of it,” she says, a bit embarrassed. “She’s only three months…”

I reach down to introduce myself. “Maltese?”

“Mix. Part poodle. Her name’s Angel. Part angel, part devil.”

Angel sniffs my hand and looks up at me, then jumps up on my leg, presumably to get a closer look. The owner yanks at Angel and gives her an unconvincing scolding and apologizes to me. I kneel until we’re almost eye level. “How’s that, Angel?”

Angel cocks her head beguilingly and I swear smiles. I give her a scratch behind the ear and hurry away before my tears show. “Thanks,” I say to the owner, “good luck. Bye, Angel.” And return home to the stillness of my dog-less home.

For the Love of Charley

On August 1, 2017
Charley Johnson

Charley with her favorite toy.

Just after I had finished the final chapter of my book, in the wee hours of the morning on the 14th of January 2017, the angels came for Charley. Outside, it rained. Rivers of water lashed against the window and thunder echoed in my bedroom.

Two days before when I noticed she wouldn’t eat or drink and was clearly in distress, I rushed her to the vet. The diagnosis was terrible: A virus had lodged in the brain. I brought her home with medications, one for pain and another for the virus. I thought about all the times in the past when Charley had made heroic miraculous recoveries but I somehow knew this would not be one of them. What little fight she managed to summon was I think now, for my sake. I also think she hung on until she knew I was asleep. Then ever so quietly, Charley let herself slip away.

Then, silence. A silence so profound that I came to dread coming home to my apartment. At night, I would lie in bed and wait for sleep, as usual, my clothes fireman-style on a chair ready for morning when Charley stirred. No gentle snoring to lull me to sleep, no quiet sigh as she shifted position reminding me we were together.

For all those nights and many days that followed, I lived inside that dead empty silence. Visits from friends, music, movies on TV, nothing filled that silence, that awful void.  I still had to go over the edits on the book but I couldn’t find space anywhere in that emptiness to think.

My son invited me to Park City, Utah for the weekend and for a few days I was enveloped in the sound of my grandkids’ laughter. But when I got home I was hit with a noisy monster flu that blotted out everything else. I drowned my sorrow in Kleenex.

After ten days, when flu symptoms began to lift, I turned on my laptop. In my inbox was an email from an old friend with a photograph of her new puppy whom she described as adorable and clownish. In the picture, the puppy was chasing a ball half its size. I saved it on my desktop.

I got to work, clicking back to the photo now and then. It started me thinking that if it’s at all possible, maybe someday when I’m ready, when the pain and grieving finally give way longing, Charley will find me again in the body of a new puppy.

I’d know the eyes….

Animal, Heal Thyself

On July 17, 2017
Oliver the cat self-medicates using catnip Nepeta cataria.

©Elizabeth Whiter’s cat Oliver self-selecting Catnip, Nepeta cataria

While researching The Pet Healer Project, I learned a new word: Zoopharmacognosy, the science of animal self-medication. Derived from the roots zoo (“animal”), pharma (“drug”), and gnosy (“knowing”), it is the animal’s innate ability to pinpoint therapeutic elements in plants. We’ve all seen our dogs eat grass and throw up; they are self-medicating.

Just recently I came across a story in a science journal that described how much of folk medicine, particularly in the undeveloped world, likely came from medicine men watching animals self-medicate. A shaman of the Tongwe tribe in Tanzania was said to have observed a sick porcupine eat the roots of a plant known to be poisonous. When the porcupine recovered, the shaman began experimenting with the root in small doses, first on himself and then on fellow villagers. It turned out to be an effective treatment for dysentery, one the Tongwe still use today.

According to a recent New York Times article, “Animals of all kinds, from ants and butterflies to sheep and monkeys, use medicine. Certain caterpillars will, when infected by parasitic flies, eat poisonous plants, killing or arresting the growth of the larvae within them. Some ants incorporate resin from spruce trees in their nests to fend off pathogenic microbes, employing the same antibacterial compounds, called terpenes, that we use when we mop the floor with the original Pine-Sol. Parrots and many other animals consume clay to treat an upset stomach; clay binds to toxins, flushing them out of the body.”

Healer and teacher Elizabeth Whiter explains, “I first became aware of zoopharmacognosy when I discovered my horse Wow eating the bark of a willow tree. None of my horses had ever done that, and I wondered then if he was doing some form of self-medication.  I looked it up: Willow tree, I learned, is salicylic acid, which is what aspirin is made from. He was self-medicating for pain! Then I noticed he was also eating rose hips for Vitamin C and bladderwrack for electrolytes, all of which help repair the body.”

Elizabeth noticed her cat Oliver outside choosing his own catnip and snapped this photograph.  The variety of catnip is Nepeta cataria.

And all along pharmaceutical companies were taking notice, too.

To learn more about how animals self-select healing plants and other amazing stories, read Sandy’s new book, The Pet Healer Project. (available September 2017)

A Lady Walks into a Doctor’s Office

On April 23, 2013

It’s not that I was sick; I wasn’t. I just needed a doctor’s name to put on my new insurance provider’s form as my Physician of Record. Since I had not been inside a doctor’s office for more than a year l had to rummage through my files to find the number of a doctor I had seen seven years before—before my bout with stage IV kidney cancer that was supposed to bring my time on earth to an end. “I don’t want a physical exam,” I explained when I made the appointment. “Or even a check-up. Just a brief consultation.”

Yet, when the doctor came into the examination room and greeted me, he took out his pen and launched into a series of questions concerning my medical history. That completed, he stood and reached into a cabinet and handed me a plastic cup. “The bathroom is down that hall, I’ll meet you right back here.”

“But – “

A nurse appeared to show me the way.

I don’t suppose it would hurt to pee in a cup, nobody’s asking me to sign something.

I set the cup on the designated shelf and returned to the exam room to get my things when the nurse breezed in and told me to roll up my sleeve, the doctor wanted a blood sample.

“No, I – “ I started to say, but the nurse was looking at her watch. The needle stood ready in one hand, cotton ball soaked in antiseptic in the other.

Obediently, I rolled up my sleeve. That green rock sitting in the crystal bowl on the table in the waiting room is not decoration, it’s kryptonite.

“The doctor wants an EKG and chest x-ray, so if you’ll undress and put on that gown, I’ll be right back.” Peering at me over her glasses, she added, “It’ll take two seconds! We’ll have you out of here in no time. “We’re a high-tech, one-stop shopping operation!”


Now the nurse was wheeling in the EKG machine and slapping little round sticky things onto my chest. Next, I was being swept into the x-ray room for a chest x-ray.

“Call in two days for the lab results,” she said as I was leaving.

That was two weeks ago.

I have not called for those labs. Since my last cancer treatment eight (!) years ago, I have not had a PET scan, x-ray, MRI, mammogram, colonoscopy, pap smear, ultrasound, or for that matter, a single flu shot. I know my body, I can sense any changes and I know what to do to address them. When I feel my body is out of balance, I take the time to figure out the cause, and, if needed, I will use botanicals, not pharmaceuticals to restore the balance. I have a naturopath, a chiropractor, an acupuncturist, and a variety of energy healers to turn to. Recently, I have added a new healer to my team, a medical empathic with extraordinary psychic abilities from New York, Ron Bard. For me, the White Coats, no matter how skilled and kind and well-intentioned, are my kryptonite.

My naturopath, Marie Anne, a skilled therapist and practitioner, has shown again and again that healing is possible even in people suffering from life-threatening illness that doctors have pronounced incurable. Her belief is that all the hi-tech tests available now are but a snapshot of the body’s systems in process at that moment. “The body is always changing, renewing, discharging toxins, replenishing and healing. A terrifying diagnosis can send the emotional/physical body into shock, creating its own path of illness.”

I fully accept that conventional medicine has its place; I would not want a psychic or a naturopath to set my broken leg. But to stay healthy, to stay connected to my body and learn to listen to its signals, I prefer the way of the healer.


On April 8, 2011

I have been hard at work on my novel, and I’m afraid, therefore neglectful about posting. I also had a rush editing job which I was obligated to complete as promised on deadline. Anyone know the origin of the word Deadline? It is the line around a prison beyond which a prisoner will be shot. Nice? That’s what we writers do to ourselves.

Worse, since I was not doing this job at home on my comfortable couch, feet up, laptop on lap (Dr. Steve, chiropractor, skip past this part), instead I was seated at a kitchen table on a small upright back-straight chair, feet on floor (my feet hate to be on the floor when I write), back pitched forward at a stress-inducing 67-degree angle. For eight straight 6-7 hour days. Stay with me, I’m giving you these details for a reason:

Somewhere around the 3rd or 4th night, I starting having bouts of diarrhea. When the gig was over and the deadline met, I was hit with a full-blown stomach flu. A magnitude 8 on the Richter scale. Fever, aches, abdominal pain vomiting. Those of you who read my cancer memoir, The Thirteenth Moon, can understand why I put ‘abdominal pains’ in italics. The kidney was where I got hit with cancer; the primary symptom, the one that had me going from doctor to doctor for months was severe, persistent abdominal pain. You see where I am going with this now?
Stomach flu is an inflammation; inflammations cause fever which in my case always cause fever dreams which again in my case always dramatize my deepest fears, my demon. I suspect most people who have come through cancer to a state of full recovery and precious good health, harbor the same grinning Stephen King/Jack Nicholson demon that pounces out from behind every closet door, the shower curtain, the tree outside our bedroom window, and at 4 a.m. in our darkened room, calling out, “I’m baaaack.”

I went to see my wonderful acupuncturist, Irina Tsoy, who was able to relieve the back pain I had inflicted on myself with needles. For my symptoms she gave me Chinese herbs. She had nothing though to banish the demon. For that, I called a naturopath whom I heard was a good diagnostician. Not exactly a White Coat, more a Robin’s Egg Blue coat, I hoped he could assure me what I had was in fact nothing more than a stomach flu — without taking me on an invasive, scary fishing expedition with CT/PET scans. I was looking for a good detective who will come up the answer with good old fashioned legwork. Because, and this is a huge BECAUSE, that demon all of us former cancer patients know so well is only an actor giving a benefit performance – for an audience of one: us.

Don’t let’s give him an encore.


  1. Dear Sandy,
    I am happy to find your blogspot. In the 90’s I read your Book of Elders; it so moved me. I tried to find you. No luck there but I did find Patricia Catches, Pete’s daughter. Along with Dave Yakima Chief, Oglala Elder when I was in Rapid City. Dave introduced me to Arvol Looking Horse and his partner, Paula Horne. That was in 1996 and 1998. What an adventure it has been all these years with many trips to SD and stays there too.Dave passed in 2005 but I am still very close to Arvol, Paula and her children.

    A few months ago I was introduced to a young, Iranian woman doctor/4th year resident psychiatrist who is an adopted daughter of Basil and Charlotte Brave Heart. So I am revisiting Book of Elders and there they all are: Pat, Arvol, Basil and Pete who I never met.
    Your experience with Pete Sr. coming to you is similar to one I had with Kicking Bear, a deceased Oglala from Pine Ridge,who appeared to me in meditation after my brother died a sudden violent death at age 43 in 1987. I was despairing and wondering what happened to my brother’s soul. That is what drew me to South Dakota to find his Kicking Bear’s relatives.

    I would love to talk to you about this and share experiences. I live in CT and am a retired labor relations arbitrator. My friend, the doctor lives in Tuscon right now. We both have left out hearts in South Dakota and hope to be back there some day soon. She was just there with a team from Center for Mind Body Medicine to help teach stress lessening techniques to the people. I am currently taking the trainings too through the Center in Wash DC.,so I can do the work eventually too with her.

    Bravo for being a cancer survivor!!!!! I’m very happy you are still her with us!

    The circle of Spirits are always very awesome to behold as they manifest in our lives and help us to see our purpose.

    How can I reach you by email?

Game Changers: Uncovering the Causes, Cures and Myths of Cancer

On October 1, 2009

I have been hard at work on my novel, and I’m afraid, therefore neglectful about posting. I also had a rush editing job which I was obligated to complete as promised on deadline. Anyone know the origin of the word Deadline? It is the line around a prison beyond which a prisoner will be shot. Nice? That’s what we writers do to ourselves.

Instead, having just come in from my brisk early morning walk with my 2 year-old Brussels Griffon Charley, I was about to get to work on my novel when it came to me. The novel can wait till later. Right now I need to be telling the many people who call and email me asking what’s new in the world of healing about the interview I did yesterday with French practitioner Marie-Anne Boularand, U.S. director and founder of the Biodecoding Institute. And the astro-physicist I met with in Montana last month. Because even though I finished my last book, The Thirteenth Moon; a Journey into the Heart of Healing, which is an odyssey of my recovery, I continue to seek out physicists and scientists working far, far outside the box who are searching for the causes, cures and myths of cancer.

I am starting this blog to share my adventures and explorations into what I believe to be the medicine of the future with all my fellow seekers.
What drew me to Boularand, whose work is based on the New German Medicine ™, is the basic principle that by tracking the root cause of any illness – finding the pattern and breaking it, a recurrence can be prevented. We began by guiding me through all the physical and emotional stages of my illness and establishing the pattern that was set in motion from early childhood. This process is described on her website: for those who’d like to learn more. Next week we will begin the process. I’ll be reporting back….
Also, last month, August, I went to Montana to interview a quantum physicist, Dan Nelson, who has developed a technique for rebalancing the body and strengthening the immune system. (more on this …)

And the work of Dr. Thomas Rau, the Chief Medical Director of the Paracelsus Klinik in Switzerland and founder of Paracelsus Biological Medicine. His clinic, close to the city of St. Gallen, is a first of its kind in Switzerland, and now widely recognized as a center of excellence for natural medicine. I will keep you posted…




  1. This is an amazing work. I am thrilled that you’re doing it and will help spread the word that there is more to health and healing then we can begin to know.

    I can’t wait to hear more…please keep ’em coming. Alex Street


    This could not have come at a better time — important on both a personal and a public level, as we all have to unite to fight the insurance companies and the corporatization of medicine!
    Anne R.

    February 26, 2011 at 3:33 PM

    This seems wonderful. I’m on a similar journey, in terms of finding ways to finish healing my thyroid and endocrine system, immune system and so on, through inner work, energy healing, communion with God and the spiritual and natural world, universal love, and natural medicine and Western medicine.

    Congrats on your book! Which one would you recommend I read? I mean, which one do you think would help me the most in my journey?

    Thanks! Peace, Rachel E. MacDonald


Installment 1: The Thirteenth Moon

On September 1, 2009

Installment 1: The Thirteenth Moon

It is dawn. Three days into the New Year of 2006, I am standing at the window of my tenth-floor apartment staring out at the morning moon which is full. On the other side of the building the sun is just beginning to rise. I can see its bright orange reflection on the windows of the buildings across from me. There is a strange, otherworldly quality about this pale morning moon. I can still make out the rabbit (I have never understood why people persist in seeing a man in the moon when it should be clear to anyone that it’s a rabbit up there – ears pointing to the right, cottontail bottom at the lower right). I ponder this rather than think about the phone call that came late yesterday afternoon, twelve hours before, from my doctor.

New Year’s Day was only three days ago. I had my traditional New Year’s Day party. Champagne, Bloody Marys, and my house special, johnnycakes (small corn cakes topped with a dollop of crème fraiche and red caviar). It felt especially festive. While winter raged across the rest of the country, we in Southern California were enjoying our 70-degree golden days. I had just settled into my new apartment, which I loved so much that I wanted the lease to read, Forever Plus Six Months. Floor-to-ceiling windows face north and west and overlook the hills of Griffith Park and pastel stucco houses with red tile rooftops set into the terraced hillside among tall Cyprus and towering palms. Bright red bougainvillea spilling over walls–my own private Tuscany.

It seemed all of us had much to celebrate. Copies of the Greek edition of my book, The Brazilian Healer with the Kitchen Knife, had just arrived in the mail, bringing the number of translations to seven; Masha was soon to be off to the Sea of Japan to begin shooting her underwater film documentary; Sebastian, a magnificent cellist, would be starting work on a new opera; Terry and Jan were planning their trip to Paris; Alex was just back from Brazil with a wonderful little painting of a Candomblé ceremony (which I was writing about); and I would soon be going back to Brazil to continue research on my novel. The first half of the decade had been good to all of us; the second half promised to be even better.

Life changes on a dime. Mid-breath. Mid-song. One minute I am unloading the dishwasher, hand-drying wine glasses and dust-busting crumbs from underneath the coffee table. The next I am doubled over by a sharp pain in my right side. After a few minutes it goes away. A stitch, a pulled muscle, I think. But that night as I get into bed I notice it again. I decide it must be a bladder infection. I’ve had them in the past; the pain is familiar. I’ll call my doctor in the morning.

That night I dream of Mimosa Pudica, the strange Brazilian plant also known as the Sensitive Plant. I had seen one in Rio in the Jardin Botannical and found it scary. A small pretty tropical shrub with fernlike leaves that quickly fold together when the plant is touched, recoiling. Then when the hand is withdrawn, the leaves unfold and the plant assumes its original form.

I wake up with my heart pounding.

The next morning I notice blood in my urine. My doctor is out of town. I’m due for lunch in Malibu at Carol Moss’s house in the Colony; when I call to confirm our date, she reminds me about the small Urgent Care Clinic nearby. I decide to stop there on the way to Malibu to get a prescription for antibiotics. A pleasant young doctor examines a urine specimen and informs me I do have a bladder infection. I get the prescription filled at the corner drugstore.